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Saturday Night
It’s amazing how summer can completely change someone’s outlook on life. It’s like suddenly everything seems carefree even though the problems haven’t nearly disappeared. Long drives and adventures with the windows down, the summer playlist on repeat, and no destination certain replace the nights of work and worry. There’s so much to happen and none of it has been decided. Driving through 6 different freeways in one night no longer seems odd and neither do random kidnappings and running from rats on a beach at nighttime.
Now that I am equipped with my awesome summer playlist, the adventures will get even more amazing (like that was possible). I try to make these entries sound philosophical and enlightening but its summertime and there is no longer a need for that. I feel very much like Faulkner as these ideas are just random and not linked at all. I guess thats what staying up late does to you. Despite all the carefreeness, I am disappointed in certain things. I’m tired of waiting for something to happen. I want to give up but sometimes I feel like holding onto the idea, hoping that it will give me a piece of what I need. The uncertainty of it all possesses a certain thrill; its like something you know will annoy or hurt later but at the moment just feels so absolutely exhilarating. Thank goodness for long two hour walks through unknown streets that possess the same uncertainty. I have just always been so used to having things laid out clearly in front of me, and though I had missed the thrill of it all, I do desire the certainty once more. I guess its true when they say you always want what you don’t and can’t have.
I have 9 minutes to finish this because my laptop has warned me of its dying battery. Who knew technology could be so limited….Though those long drives and adventures seem like an escape at the moment I decide to embark on them, they have been so much more. I have created more memories in the last two weeks than I think I have my entire high school life. Not one memory is alike as I have surrounded myself with different groups of people and bonds have been built that I know will last even after we take that walk down Slavin field next June with our images projected on the screen for the crowd to see. Though leaving high school seems so scary, these times make it all feel okay. They make it seem that it’s a long ways off and there is no need to worry.
On a lighter note, I’m supposed to be writing a computer program on Monday and I have no idea how to program. I have no idea what I’m supposed to be doing. Its funny how even though I’ve read through the manual during two 8 hour work days, Ryder (who hasn’t even taken computer science yet) was able to correct me on the name of the program Im using. But, I did go on my first run in about 3 months this morning and it was pretty difficult not gonna lie. Oh how I yearn for the moment when Johnny Gray calls me a jelly donut again.
This summer is going to be way different than any I’ve ever had and I’m so excited for what it’s got in store for me and the people that I’m spending it with.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C_WwsA_Ky-k
I finished with a whole minute to spare.
Good night Los Angeles
